I knew that this year would bring great things. How great, I did not know. Then I heard that Top Gun was coming back to the theaters. Holy shit. Yes. This is my year. Last Friday the day was finally here and I was so excited to take my kids to see this movie that in my life has been epic and extremely personal as well. Maverick was my first crush. Dangerzone will always be Micah. Everything about that movie speaks to my soul, and I am in love with it. I’ve bought the fucking soundtrack 5 times. The movie was nothing short of amazing and I fell in love with the 80’s all over again. I will always love the 80’s and Kenny Loggins. I’m not gonna lie, I was crying before the movie even started. On the drive home, which was long since the kids and I had to go see it in East Mesa, I felt Micah everywhere. I heard him in the music. I saw his truck on the road. I had him riding shotgun, and I knew that things were going to be okay. I haven’t been sure about that for six months. My life and future was always up in the air and I never knew where I would end up. Then, everything was just ok again. Like that.. That easy. I no longer was worried. And I’m a fucking worrier. I overthink. That’s what I do… I put the kids to bed that night and I decided to get some work done when my phone chimed. Blast from the past. I couldn’t have expected it, but there it was. A name on my phone, calling me from the dead to talk. It’s funny how when you least expect it, life puts what you need in your way. I needed a friend. I needed that friend. So here I am now, a week later, and everything feels right. I am not lonely. I’m excited about the future. For the first time in 8 years, I’m not afraid. I don’t know what happened in my car that night driving home, but I think Micah saw me. I think he knew I was still in pain and that I missed him so much still that I wasn’t living wholly. I think he decided to help out. Maybe it’s premature, but I think things will be getting better from now on. No more shit. No more bad. I want a life with my children that is filled with adventures. They don’t know it yet, but everything just changed. Errythang.