There is often a lot of negativity in my line of work. And there are days when it can be overwhelming to experience all day. I’ve recently been talking to my students and my clients about the laws of attraction. What you think about becomes who you are and becomes your life. Your  thoughts, they become your actions. Your actions, they become the life you have. When you have a choice daily to decide to have a good day or a bad one; why pick a bad one. I haven’t had a really bad day in years. I have had bad moments;  definitely bad hours. I have not had a bad day. In every situation there is a positive to it. Every one. Are you looking? I am.

On the day my sister died, which was just shy of 6 years ago, that was not a bad day for me. I watched my only sister die. I watched her gasp for air and suffocate to death as the machines that had been pumping her with life, shut down. This was a bad morning. However, as I sat there and held her wrist and felt her pulse slowly soften, I was not mad. I was not sad. I was not angry. I was grateful. Grateful to have had those moments with her when I could see her smile or remember her laugh (her smile shone through her eyes and her laugh was deep and from the gut…infectious). That morning, I was grateful she had been in my life even for a second. I had learned from her life. It was not wasted at all. But still, while she was dying next to me, I was grateful she was going to be safe now and no longer sick. I was grateful she was going to leave this world to be greeted by two beautiful blonde haired boys who adored her (her little brothers, Matthew and Micah). I was thankful I had the chance to tell her I was sorry and that I would miss her dearly, and that I understood why she was leaving. Please know that accepting the death of a loved one does not mean it is easy to say goodbye. I am crying now as I write.  I grieve for her and I miss her. But, I know that there is still good in her loss.

Sorry, I got side tracked…

Where was I?

Oh yeah…sis had just died.

Carry on.

Even after kissing her dead cheek goodbye, and knowing it would be the last time I would feel her physical presence, I did not have a bad day. Dammit, I was lucky to have been there with her to see her off onto the next realm. I was and still am jealous of her.

She can fly (I assume). Flying would be so fucking fun.

Sorry. Back to that day.

I left the hospital that afternoon to hundreds of calls and texts from people supporting me and my family. I went home to healthy babies. I went home to a man I adored. I went home to a home. Not everyone has a home.

I later met with more people who loved me and my family and were broken over the loss of Amy, just as we were. I am grateful for those people.

My rant has a point, I promise.

The point is that everyday, we choose how to see this world. We can have a bad day or a good one. The laws of attraction are real and we get back what we send out.

This is not just a mindset, but a daily practice.

I will continue to remind myself that I need to be thankful for what I have now. I will continue to spend my life helping others to see that this world is a miraculous place to live in. Positive thoughts lead to positive actions etc.

If I can tell you all that losing my only sister was not a bad day for me, you can get through anything.  I mean that.

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So P.S.

(I never  do a PS)

I am so genuinely thankful for my readers. Seeing those in countries I cannot pronounce that I have readers makes me hopeful that these rants are doing something good. I am grateful to have the platform to reach others and I wish you all will feel as loved and as appreciated in your lives as you have made me feel

rant over.